Sometimes you have so many things to say, but you don’t know from where to start things.

Sometimes we are so happy to accomplish things and sometimes, we cross the old paths yet again and wonder why it’s happening to us.

It’s in toughest times that we learn so many things and coming out strong of it would be the best victory one can ever achieve.


Feelings -2

I don’t know why I dream of you a lot nowadays. Your bare hands touching mine and holding it tight to show me your support. I have been blogging a lot about you since the day you left. Because my mind and heart together are possessed by your thoughts right now.

Nowadays people comment, when I wear your clothes, shoes and even carry your bags. Basically, I am wearing everything that belongs to you. Yes, that’s my way of keeping myself safe that you are there with me. People might laugh at me or some people may think, I won’t be able to forget you or come out of the pain, if I continue wearing your clothes or kept your things near me. The real point is I don’t want to forget you. You are mom, my mom. I don’t want to discard your things. Things that mattered to you, matters to me a lot now.

I don’t know what the world around me thinks, but for me this is the right thing to do. I love you Mom.

I now know how it feels when you lose one of the strongest support and are standing alone facing difficult times by your own. Yeah, I have people around who care for me, but just discussing about you, or going out with them or just plain talking to them doesn’t work always. You are so much missed that words won’t suffice and explain the emptiness that you have left behind.


Life lessons 4

With my experiences in life, I have learned that time, relations and money have a great value. Time doesn’t wait for anyone once gone. Entering into a relation is easy but maintaining it for a lifetime is difficult and biggest responsibility. Money doesn’t come easily and One has to work hard to earn it. So value these three things in life because not everyone is lucky enough to have these in their life. If we don’t value what we have, we don’t deserve to have it at first place. There are people who don’t have much time, but have tons of responsibilities, wishes to accomplish, some don’t have the money to fulfill their big dreams and some don’t have money to even fulfill a day’s of their water and food quota. Many people have everything, but don’t have people to be there by their side, to love them, to support them or to listen to them. So one must value things that they have. One must do right to preserve the same. Today Time helps us to do so many things, we get one more day to live and do things that we ought to do. It’s because of money, we are able to eat, drink and are able to provide for our family. And most of all, it’s our beautiful relations that we share with our parents, spouse, siblings and friends that we are able to keep our sanity in check, have someone to share our happiness with, have someone’s shoulders to cry on.

So one must always value what they have and respect the value of time, relations and money.


As time goes by

There are times when I don’t let myself feel anything,

I get so engrossed into my day-to-day work,

That I don’t let your thoughts inside my head.

But, sometimes you are remembered so badly,

That the place or the work, I am doing, cease to exist.

I look out of the window,

Search for the single star that makes me feel your presence.

Your grandson points out at you,

Whenever he sees one star that we have taught him is his Grandma.

We have told him that you are now in heaven staying with Gods,

And you are watching us from above.

Whenever your grandson, my little nephew sees me crying,

He looks out of the window and calls out for you.

He holds my finger and tells me not to cry,

And offers me a chocolate that he thinks will make me smile.

He amazes me Maa, and even he misses you sometimes.

Your sudden demise has left a strong scar on me,

And also a fear of losing my loved ones.

It’s after your death, I have realized that

Nobody knows how long one might live,

So till the time you are alive, feel every moment

And live every moment with your loved ones.

Give them the time they deserve,

Because time doesn’t wait for anyone.

I miss you Maa.

Heta Gala Naidu


Intricacies of a new mother

Having a child is the best gift any parents could have. So when a child is born, there is always a dilemma for all the mothers who are working, whether to continue to work and not let go of their careers or just take a break and look after their child. Yeah, it seems easy for others, but mind you, it is the biggest and the toughest decision a mother has to make.

Every mother understands their situation well and they exactly know what works best for them. For some, quitting the career is the best choice and for some going on to work is important and they can’t stop that after having a child. Nobody can judge them because you never know what makes them take that step. We can just be an outsider and watch the show and comment on it easily, but it is them who has to go through that phase and nobody actually knows what makes them do something.

If somebody asks me, well when I have one, I would quit my work at least for a few years and take care of my child. Yes, that would work best for me as I would like to give 100% attention to my kid and I wouldn’t be okay with anyone else taking care of them on my behalf. Yes, that would work best for me, but it isn’t necessary that the same would work best for others or this is the right thing to do. But of course, it all depends on the situation at that time. If situation demands something else, I would do that too, but as of now seeing my current situation, I would do exactly the way I said.

But, I have witness a few parents who never take their kids seriously. Who don’t take their position of being parents important. No, hold up a moment, I am not passing judgments on anybody, but rather I. have seen such parents who don’t know how important it is to give their time to their kids. Who just thinks of themselves and their needs and their time. I won’t disclose who they are, I don’t think that’s needed here, but all my point here is having career is the best thing, but make sure you give the same amount of time to your kids too. Behind your career, your kids shouldn’t be neglected. Whenever you get free from your work and our back home, your whole attention should be towards your kid. Today what you do, the exact same thing your kids will learn from you. So it’s your decision on how you want your child’s future to be shaped. When you decide to start a new chapter in your life, it’s you who decides the story of it and you are the sole responsible person for it. So be a responsible parent and make a decision accordingly. After all we work so hard not only to be a successful person in life, but we work for our family, for our kids future too, so if we don’t have time for the same, what the use of having money or having success in only career and not as a parent.

I know all mothers out there how difficult it is to make this decision, but remember mothers shouldn’t be alone in this, because kids are responsibility of both the parents and mutually both should decide things accordingly.

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Good days and Bad days

There are bad days and good days. There are days when we are so tired after doing household chores and handling office work at the same time and also handling a two year old kid. No doubt kids teach you a lot every day and so does my nephew BabyKiyaan but on some days he is so rigid and throws tantrums that pisses me off and makes me tired. He is the one who never complains if we ask him to stay somewhere because of some situation. When I cry he wipes my tears and shouts at me to not cry. He hugs me and comforts me saying he is there. Yes a two year old kid understands a lot than we adults can even think of. So days will be there when he will piss you off and won’t let you do any work, but some days he would be so happy and in mood and these pictures reflect how much happy he is in his own company. I love him no doubt and I hope he always remember as his best aunt. He has taught me a lot in these two years and five months and time will come when I have to part ways and we both will be living in different countries where meeting him everyday won’t be possible. No matter what, for me you will always remain my Chotu. Love you and God Bless you with an amazing future.


Is it a dream or reality?

I still feel that I am dreaming and the dream has still not ended. It feels like you will come in front of me someday and say “ Get up bacha, I am back. I am done playing hide and seek and you guys lose as you couldn’t find me.” I would be ready to lose as having you back would be the best win for me Maa. It’s difficult without you. Come to me as I need you. We had so much planned, so many things needs to be done. It’s difficult to even do daily chores Mom. I am reminded of you wherever I go. Going to market, or going to mall or salon or doctor visits, none of it has been without you. It’s like I am used to being around you. You were always afraid of me not being around you once I leave India for my new journey in another country and I was always worried that how would I survive without you and Baby Kiyaan. Now I feel like atleast you would have been in reach of me via phone, if you were alive. Now, you are so far that I couldn’t connect with you and speak to you. It’s difficult Mom, I swear it’s difficult. Nobody can replace the biggest loss that I am going through. I don’t even know when or how will I recover from this shock that you wouldn’t be there in person anymore or Except in memories or pictures I won’t be able to see you anymore. Just the thought gives goosebumps and tears automatically flow. People around tell me what’s written in destiny will happen. If that’s true I hope you are written in my destiny and I will wait for this destiny to make us meet again. Wherever you are, listen to me, you are missed very badly and I am trying my best to cope up with your loss. Be with me because you were, are and will be my strongest support in my entire life. Love you Mom.

You were the one who did every possible thing for her children. Today wherever I am it’s because of you and your sacrifices. You were my hero and will remain in my stories that I will pass it on to your grandchildren. I have refrained myself to do so many things in life because you wanted me to, so that nobody is upset with me around. And yes I use to be angry with you for not letting me do things I always saw my friends doing it. I use to be upset and sad that everyone except me are enjoying and living their life to the fullest. But later, I use to think that you deserve this much for the sacrifices you had done. There were many things for which people around me used to be upset about, but I never regretted because I know how much you had to go through later. You were the best and you are the greatest loss of my life.